As I mentioned repeatedly everywhere, as in my journals or maybe somewhere in my older posts which I don't remember, I love to write because it clears up my thoughts. However, my action hasn't reflected my saying, you know. To put it simply, I must and need to do more instead of just mentioning it or talking about it. This time hopefully my action will carry through my intention.
It's always easier to write about real things we've experienced. At least that's what suggested in most of "beginner writer's tips" we found everywhere. So, that's how I'm going to start. I'd like to share what happens recently in my family. It might be random, have no correlation whatsoever in-between paragraph or any parts of my writing; but oh well, I'll just roll with whatever pops out on top of my head.
Guess what? I'm turning 30 in less than a month! Crazy, right? My birthday is on August 23rd. Real story, I've had been dreading about turning 30 since the middle of last year on 2021. Ever since I started to work again on May 2018 until now, so now I'm still working on the longest job I've ever taken; my life has been only about working and helping out my family. I went back to the same ideal as when I worked outside of my hometown when I was a fresh graduate. The difference is on the "helping my family" part. See, because I live with my family, I can be more hands-on and not just helping in terms of financial. It is normal for me, I mean like sometimes family members live together in a house but there might be one or two of them who are like not really "living" together with family, if that made sense. For me, it's not a problem. I give credits to my parents who had engraved a custom thought in my brain and hopefully my siblings too about "do good for others especially for family without asking for anything in returns". I get that it can't be applied the same way as others and each person's situation is different. But, the main idea holds. When you live with your family, it's always better to find ways that you can help others out. It starts with taking care of your belongings and your space first, which I know that's what we were taught as kids mostly, it's basically about making good habit; then it'll expand to more general areas.
As long as each and every single one member in a family has good understanding and communication with one another, any problems or issues would be less likely to become something major.
Here's an example. I've had heard many stories of inharmonious lives on family, how the members don't respect and communicate well with one another, how there's always a grudge among family, how they don't get along, always bad-mouthing behind one another's backs, hurt one another in many forms not just physically. Some has worse story than the others. They were so hard for me to listen to but hearing them made me feel more grateful with the family I have. Although clearly I don't mean this to show-off or compare my family with anyone's family. When a friend of mine shares something personal or family-related, I keep my focus on what said friend's stories without referencing or saying something in returns related to my family. Plus I only give out my takes if I am asked to or if I really think they're worth to be said, in that case I always ask permission first to said friend. That's what I do. Still, no offense to those who do things differently than I do, to each their own.
Here's what it is like in my family regarding those kinds of situation. There many people in my family. By family I mean my direct family whom I interact with in day to day basis. There are my mom and my step-dad, my 5 younger siblings, finally my toddler nephew and niece. I think I might want to write more about each member separately like one post per member of family. For now, it's just going to be general stuff. As far as I know and based on my point of views, I can say that there's no bad "energy" within family. Sure we clash once in a while, we have differences; but it has never been up to become something hurtful. We banter with each other, we're blunt about one another's habits like things we like and we don't like. We express our views, our opinions. No one suppress or forces the others. I believe we have a good communication and proper tolerance. Those were our keys to maintain the harmony. We embrace the diversity and try to balance everything out. Every single thing we do is for the sake of being good and helping the others. However, please do underline here that it doesn't just happen out of nowhere. It took great effort as a team, always will be.
I said I'm going to bring recent event happened in my family but I haven't mentioned anything about that yet. Alright, here we go.
Recently, my 25-year old brother bought a house. He was eligible for bank's house loan with his job as an engineer at one local industry. There was a house for sale at the same district as our current rented house. The location is very well-worth it, so my brother did everything he could to get the house. We're planning to do renovations before we move in. The new house is primarily bought for our mom and her kids. I am in questionable position because currently I live with my 28-year old sister and her 2 children because her husband works overseas in Malaysia. So I am not sure if I am considered one of the new comers in the new house. But, I'm helping out still any way I can financially and everything else.
it's as clear as crystal that my monthly salary doesn't cover all the bills and it won't be if i don't get another source of income. I am struggling so bad. I admit I'm still lost and clueless at this point. So, back again, writing all of these for now is my way of clearing my mind, using my times better by creating something. I will share more about this struggle particular on my next daily cup.
Thanks for reading this. Have a great day. ☺
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